Today is Wednesday. As the semester comes to a close and we become knee deep in finals review, I started to review my blog posts. There is no lie there is a definite lapse in posting dates (that and the constant reminder from Karina…she just reminded me 2 minutes ago). I also have begun to see a serious slack in my class participation and overall involvement in my extra-curricular activities.
Another thing to know about me is that I proud to say that I am a dreamer at heart. The terrible additive that comes with being a dreamer is I am also part slacker (ok half…okay maybe 3/4). In between lectures, discussions, dinner dates, and athletic practices I LOVE to procrastinate. I mean hell I even wrote a blog post about it. This could mean doing anything on that list or simply daydreaming with doodles and scraps for my “dream” (see what I did there) of a famous screenplay or novel…hopefully…maybe. And being the dreamer that I am, and Karina can vouch for me, I like to plan things. And sometimes my plans can actually get in the way of being productive. While busy dreaming up my wonderful future life of world travels, film festivals, and creating/accepting “OMG we should totally do that” projects I become overwhelmed and ultimately push them to the back of my to-do list to dream and dream some more. Come to think of it I also push a lot of readings to the back of my to-do list.
Basically before I start to ramble anymore what I mean to say is this- although dreaming is awesome and I wish people would do it more often, there is a time and space for procrastination. As I start planning for my senior thesis (eeek!) I remember all those readings that I would “read later” and all of those class discussion I spent more time daydreaming than discussing. College is a prime opportunity where you sit a room after reading a piece of text or seeing a film and discuss it with people who are just as passionate as you are. And even if you have the one person who comes to class to roll their eyes at every topic or the other person who shoots down your ideas everyone at one point everyone has a new opinion; or even better a new perspective.
Accountability is a way to define respect not only for the subject or topic, but your own growth as student, intellectual, and, in general, a thing inhabiting the planet. From turning a paper in on time to telling your friend to meet at a specific time (Bryn Mawr Time: break the bond while you can) produces a physical manifestation of respect. As we inch closer and closer to summer or in the seniors’ cases the “real world” you have to think about what this means for future jobs and internships or, in my case, when you still don’t have one? A dream can only get so far before you need put on your productive pants and get going no matter the position you are in.
I also understand that it is ironic that I’m talking about accountability as I am procrastinating writing this blog post instead of one of my final papers due on Friday. HOWEVER, I do have to say that after this momentary relapse I am turning a new leaf come summer.
To be continued…
TL;DR-Accountability is a fancy word for respect. A dreamer/ part slacker like me needs to be reminded of that every once in a while.